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Overcoming Guilt About Getting Pregnant with Baby #2

When we decided to start trying to get pregnant, I was so excited at the thought of having another baby.  I couldn’t wait to get pregnant and was so disappointed every month when I took a pregnancy test and was faced with another negative.  What I didn’t anticipate was feeling so guilty when I did finally get pregnant with baby number two.

As soon as I found out I was pregnant, I immediately looked at my little 9 month old and wondered what this would do to our relationship.

We spend every single day together and are completely inseparable.  I was immediately sick to my stomach (and it wasn’t just morning sickness!) wondering “what have I done?”

Was it too soon to have another baby?

Why did we try so hard to have another baby so soon instead of just enjoying our beautiful son?

It took a little while (and a good talk with our marriage counselor) before I realized I was being silly.

Our counselor completely dismissed my worries as normal and said as soon as the baby gets here those fears will go away.

As soon as she acted like I was just acting like any second-time mom would, my fears immediately eased up.

I knew deep down that there was so much to be excited about.  I read stories online about moms going through the same thing as me and it eased by guilt about feeling guilty.

I called a former coworker who I knew had two babies close together and told her my fears.

She is one of 5 kids and said she didn’t think twice about having a second baby so close to her first one.  She said it just seemed natural to her because she was from a bigger family.

There was a big clue to my anxiety.  Being an only child, OF COURSE I’m going to feel differently.  I had no idea what to expect with siblings because I’ve never had any!

The biggest piece of advice she gave me was to continue to look at my son as a baby, even after the new baby comes.

She said that her daughter was 17 months old when her son was born and that she immediately started to get snippy with her daughter for any wrongdoing because she felt like she should know better.

My friend’s mother even told her “she’s still a baby too…” but my friend didn’t think so.  She viewed her firstborn as a stubborn toddler instead of just an older baby trying to adjust to a new arrival.

After this conversation, I came up with some ground rules for myself to follow with my son when the new baby arrives.

  • One of my main rules is that I won’t be quick to correct him. I would rather cause myself some stress trying to maintain my composure than to punish my son for his confusion when a new sibling arrives.
  • Make the most of the new baby’s naptimes and spend quality time with my son.
  • Still strive to attachment parent my son and make sure that I’m still wearing him as much as possible
  • Give my husband the new baby periodically and spend some one-on-one time with my beautiful Nugget.

Of course, we’ll have to teach him right from wrong and will show him how to treat his new brother or sister.  Right now, it looks like hitting and throwing things is going to be a big behavior issue we struggle with, BUT it isn’t our son’s fault that he has a new sibling coming.  We’re going to continue to raise him with gentle respect and show him the right way to behave instead of yelling or punishing him more harshly because there is a new baby in the picture.

The next thing I thought about to bring myself some comfort is how lonely my childhood was.  The good thing is that I ended up being best friends with my grandfather, my PapPap, and that got me through a very rough childhood.

However, it would have been amazing to have a person more my age to play with.  Especially because I grew up in the country without neighbors with kids my age.

My kids are never going to know what that’s like.  Yes, we live in the country and our kids are going to grow up playing in the dirt and running around barefoot, just like my husband and I always dreamed.  They’re going to do that together.

My son is losing his status as an only child, but he’s gaining a best friend.

He’ll have someone to grow up with and play with and torture me and his dad with.  He’ll have someone to gang up on me with.  It’s going to be so much fun!  (For them…  The jury is still out how this is going to affect my husband and I!)

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I love that my Nugget will have a little camping buddy, a homeschooling buddy, a mess-making buddy…

I love that I’m going to get to yell at two of them for drawing on the walls or flushing toys down the toilet.  It excites me that the good memories people have of their childhoods will involve this other person who is growing in my belly as we speak.

My goals as a mother are to raise our family in such a healthy home that our babies are able to grow up with the same strong morals and values and remain close throughout their lives.

I’ve even told my son that the day this baby comes will be the day he sees his worst nightmare and his favorite dream come true.

I know that after everyone is settled in, he’ll love his new sibling and will never wish he could trade them for the world.

I read in my online travels about becoming a second-time mom that only one of your little ones will remember this time and to act accordingly.  Even though my firstborn is still too young to remember these moments, I thought that was an amazing piece of advice.

Plus, there is NEVER a bad time to have a new baby.  We view all babies as such gifts.  We couldn’t be more thrilled that we are being given the opportunity to have another baby so soon, especially after thinking it would be a huge struggle with my PCOS.

Did you have two babies close together?  Did you feel guilty when you first found out you were pregnant?  How did you handle it?  Let me know in the comments!

 

Jk

Wednesday 13th of February 2019

I’m so glad I ran into this article. It completely hit home. I too am an only child. My son is 6 months old and we found out I’m pregnant again. I have been feeling so guilty. I wanted to wait until my son was at least a year old to start trying again. I feel like I’ve cheated my son in ways. Plus I’m kinda embarrassed. What will people think, having two babies 14 months apart? Reading your article did ease some of my anxiety and I’m glad I’m not the only one who feels this way because I feel guilty for feeling like this! I want my second to experience the same joy in the womb as my first but right now I just have so many fears.

Kaytlin

Thursday 31st of January 2019

I found out I was pregnant with #2 at 12 weeks, my little boy is now 9 months old and I am 21 weeks pregnant with out second little boy, and I have waves of guilt and happiness, I struggle with thinking I don't want this one because my son and I have such an amazing bond and I feel like I'm ripping that away in some sense. This article helped me a lot, I realize with two boys they're just going to have so much fun together but at the same time I still find myself thinking how am I going to love Sawyer (#2) like I love Jensen (#1) But my husband and my mom keep reassuring me that when I see him everything will change. I hope so.

MommyJ

Tuesday 18th of April 2017

This really makes me fee much better. I have an 8 month old and have gotten pregnant un expectly for baby 2. We knew we wanted another but i thought we would wait between. I feel like my first child is going to miss out somehow. My babies will be 16 months apart and my brother and i are 18 months and we r not close because we werealways being compared being close on age. I will make sure i dont do that with my kids and make them grow apart because of it.

Jamie

Tuesday 18th of April 2017

Hi! I had to respond the second I saw your comment. Our babies are 17 months apart. I was racked with guilt throughout my whole pregnancy feeling like I'd robbed my first born of our attention. I even held him and cried right before we left to go to the birth center to have our 2nd little one. Now, our second is 10 months, our first is 2 years and 3 months - and they're best friends. They love each other so unconditionally. Our 1st son was never jealous at all. Now, if he really wants me to pick him up he'll point at the floor and say "baby" and have me scoop him up instead. I fell asleep last night snuggling my oldest. You'll be amazed at how much you can love each of your babies. Please feel free to reach out to me throughout your pregnancy and I'll give you this same pep talk. It's going to be ok, mama. I promise! You're giving your little one a best friend and you're never going to compare them like you were compared growing up. This situation is completely different. Hugs!

Jamie

Monday 15th of August 2016

My first was 2.5 when I had her sister, my second was 1.5 when her sister was born my 3rd was just about to be 2 when her brother was born. I remember thinking, when I was pregant with my second there is no way I can love another baby the way I love my daughter and you just do and each time and it grows and grows. It amazing! I may have felt guilty at the end of pregnancies whenI had a hard time lifting my other children but you just find other ways or ask for help . If you start to feel guilty just think about the love those siblings will have for Eachother my children are close in age and they are best friends

Jamie

Monday 22nd of August 2016

Hi Jamie! The love I see now between my toddler and our new baby is incredible. I have no idea what I was so worried about! I know other families sometimes deal with jealousy issues, but so far, we haven't had any of that. My toddler is extremely protective of his brother and watches intently when the doctor checks him over or when a friend holds him. It makes me want about 10 more! Okay, I'm just kidding, but I seriously won't worry this much when I get pregnant with babies 3 and 4 (hopefully!)

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